Monday, January 30, 2012
♥ Unexpected.
JAE results are out today! Some woke up specially to see if the get into the choice that they want, some just slept till whatever time that they want. Me? Initially I wanted to sleep till late morning but end up getting numerous sms and a morning call that was filled with vulgarities from Nat.. LOL. Well, quite satisfied with the school that I'm posted to actually!School's starting tomorrow but I'm still currently in a holiday mood. Why does it feels like my holidays had only just started?! Sleeping late everyday around 3am and waking up at 12pm and now suddenly you want me to wake up at 6am from tomorrow onwards. How in the world am I going to survive? Not getting enough sleep is one issue, coping in JC life is another issue. Already struggling in my secondary school just to get those results is already sian enough, now I still have to stay alive for another 2 years, 2-even-worse-than-secondary-school-years, to get into university and then I need to work hard after another few years again. Seriously, am I fated to studying?
Pray hard that I can survive for that 2 years, and that I'll get good classmates and schoolmates. (:
Monday, January 9, 2012
♥ Tears of joy, tears of sorrow.
Hello beautiful readers. :')I have good news, but it comes with bad news too. Let's start off with the happy things alright? I did sort of well for my 'O' levels! Firstly, 冯老师 suddenly came to me and said, "我告诉你一件事,你不要喊! 你考一." I got a shock. I really got an A1 for chinese?! I couldn't believe my ears seriously. I was overjoyed. I really wanna thank 冯老师. But at the same time, I wanted to tell her so much that I proved her wrong. She told me that the best that I can do is only an A2. But now what? I got an A1! -jumps around-
Went to collect my result slip.. And I'm quite satisfied with most of the subjects! Actually, to be specific, I'm satisfied with all the subjects except English. I don't know why but my English grade was horrible. I cried the moment I see that grade. I was really upset.
Went home and I cried again while talking to my mum. I must have sounded like a crybaby but I'm not kidding. Why did I do so badly for English? Was my language that poor? Then saw twitter and seeing some of my friends' results, I realised that I actually shouldn't be whining and complaining anymore. It's not like I can't go to the courses or whatsoever. In fact, I did well. Even my mum was satisfied. My dad was too, except the English part. Yes I'm upset that I didn't do up to expectations for English, but it's over already, isn't it. Shall just treat it as a lesson learnt and study harder from now on.
Dad wants me to go to JC and mum wants me to go to poly. In a dilemma right now. I don't know where to go. I want to go pursue my interest in poly but I wanna go university. I'm really greedy right. Anyone wants to save me. ):
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
♥ 9TH JAN OMG
9TH JANUARY OMG NOOOOO I'M SO SCARED.Why? Reason's HERE.
I'm so scared omg can't describe my feelings. Will I do well? Or will I do badly? Can I get into a good school/course? Will my whole year's effort be gone down the drain just like that? Will it be paid off? The correction tape won't kill me right. I got more than 501 questions in my mind right now. Trying my best to remain confident and calm but somehow I can't. I wanna know my results, but at the same time I don't wanna know. And thanks to this, I end up contradicting myself.
If I cry on that day, I want the tears to be tears of joy and not tears of sorrow. I want those tears to be worth it. I want to tell the teachers that all the time they spent on me for all the lessons and consultations are worth it. I want to tell myself so badly that my efforts are finally paid off. I wanna show myself that I can do it. I wanna prove people who looked down on me wrong. I really want to...
I'm having a bad feeling about this and I hate it. Please make my worries be there for nothing. Please tell me that I really did well... The next time I come blogging, I want it to be good news.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
♥ Bye 2011, hello 2012.
A picture speaks a thousand words, so I shall not elaborate it much. So there you go, the above picture shows everything. My netball farewell party on 28th december 2011.. that marks the end of my 4 years of dedication to cvss netball. Honestly, I didn't know netball have so many members already. Seems like twice the number when I first entered CNBT. I love my girls, especially my batch. The crazy, fun, loving, group of girls. What would my life be without them? Lastly, gonna thank my awesome juniors for their hard work and efforts in preparing for this event for the 15 of us. ♥But my main purpose of today's post was right stated in the title. "Bye 2011, hello 2012." I would say 2011 was actually rather a fast and awesome year for me. I overcame the worst obstacles, I overcame my fear, I found out who are my true friends. How many buckets of tears did I waste this year? But in exchange, I became a stronger person. I complained, I whined, but I know, it's just parts and parcels of life. Life's short, so smile while you can. Well, I think one of the thing that I will not regret doing this year was to confess to him. I think I'm entering my fourth year of liking him huh. I can't really remember the exact date, but I know it's around this period. I need to forget him. I really need to.
2011, where I firstly lost my 3 years of best friend. 2011, where I got scolded by people on twitter and facebook. 2011, where my relationship with my dad became worse. 2011, my most important exams, the 'O' level. 2011, the year I finally confessed to him. 2011, the year he finally wished me a 'Happy Birthday'. 2011, the year I had the most number of memories together with him. 2011, where I finally turned 16!
2011 was definitely an awesome year with my awesome friends and buddies... Weiliang, Qiying, Jonathan, Jin Xuan, Weiying etc. Lastly, my 2F'09, 4H'11, PIES and lovely netballers.
Bye 2011. May 2012 be an even better year for me. :')
Bye 2011. May 2012 be an even better year for me. :')
Saturday, December 17, 2011
♥ The lamborghini story.
I'm in love with this car. Lamborghini Aventador.
Anyway, I had always been in love with Lamborghini cars. So, yeah.
/stares and dreams that one day I can ride in it/
Hi-tea Christmas party at Mr and Mrs Lee's house. It was a rather nice outing actually, had fun playing and talking with the sweet couple. Saw their wedding photos and videos, really envied them. But I guess it was also partly cause they shared the same beliefs. They are both Protestants, they teach humanities.. and yknow! Really wanna know who I'll be married to in the future hahaha. Will the marriage work out and last long? Okay, guess it's still early to say about it.
Anyway, had this gift exchange with the peeps, and guess what? Weiliang got my present! Fate huh? ;')
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
♥ 131211
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
I'm so bhb, but I'm really very happy! Initially I really didn't looked forward to my birthday. I thought it would be boring, and would pass by just like any other Tuesday. Besides, after my birthday, I would have nothing else to look forward to. 12mn, I was stuck at the MRT platform after my work. Why? Because damn it, I missed the last train home. The feeling was really cool. But I know my mum would definitely be angry with me. End up reached home around 1am, and my mum was indeed pretty pissed off. A bad start of my 131211 huh.
Oh, even before 12mn, I started waiting for him to text me. I always felt that he won't wish me at all. Every time my phone vibrates, I silently wished that it was him who text me. Waiting, and still waiting.
Later after I woke up, had lunch at Jack's Place with my mum and bro. It was a rather bad lunch. I mean, not the food. But my brother was hell annoying and my mum kept talking about me reaching home late and stuffs. Y'know, I can't stand people nagging at me. Then went to Grandma's house. Oh, before that. Mum got me a pretty keychain with my name on it from Gift A Name. It wasn't really expensive, but I love it. While waiting for my dinner.. The best part is here. Guess what. HE TEXT ME OMG. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. I checked twice and then I almost screamed! I was really overjoyed. I immediately text Qiying and tweeted to Weiliang as well. I mean, sorry for being so exaggerating but it's true. I was really surprised and elated. I guess my readers must be thinking that I'm insane.
After which, had a wonderful dinner with grandparents and uncle and mum and bro. Grandma indeed know me well. She knows what kind of food that I like and stuffs. I just love her ttm. /inserts a million hearts/
Well, as least better than that evil and cruel dad of mine. He didn't even wished me 'Happy Birthday' at all. How upset I was. Don't even talk about present. He actually scolded me. I really can't help it but memories of the past flowed back. Sometimes I really hate him. Much more than I hated my aunt. He's my dad. My dad. I think I need to go for a DNA check soon. Okay, negative thoughts away, I should be happy. Since it's my birthday. Right? /smiles/
Anyway, I really wanna thank each and everyone of you for your birthday wishes, whether is it directly, or indirectly. Without all of you, my birthday would definitely not be as splendid as it was. :')
But, there're some people who I really want to give special thanks. It was them who made my day even better, and it was them who were always there for me throughout my 2011 in school. Through ups and downs, they never leave me alone to fight the battle myself.
Weiliang!My first and only mentor! He was definitely one of the person who I can trust. I remembered, we only got close when he asked about my secret in exchange for his. Initially, I admit. I was damn scared that he will tell. But somehow, my hunch tells me that he can be trusted. And I was right. He's definitely one who can keep my secrets. I don't have to be afraid of accidentally telling him anything. Because I tell him almost everything. Every time I'm upset, he knows. Even when I cried, he also knew. I can never hide anything from him! Whenever I get into trouble, the first person I thought of to help me would be him. I would say that the thing that I might never regret in my whole entire life would be to know him. He's one of the most loyal guys I've ever known. Thanks mentor, you're always the best. ♥Qiying!In the early part of the year, we were only close friends, but not to the standard of telling each other secrets. But ever since an incident, everything changed. But it was good anyway. At least in return, I got her as my best friend. Of all the people who knew my secret, she was the only one who was able to guess it. Right. At the first attempt. And that was the start when I really trusted her and told her almost everything. Somehow, I don't feel afraid of telling her. My heart tells me that she can be trusted. And it's really true! Not only can she be trusted, but she's like my listening ear. I whine and complain to her. But she never had a word of complain. Instead, she gave me advice and words of comfort. Where else can I find such an awesome friend? And so sweet to sms me my birthday wish right on the dot at 5.01pm? Thanks so much girl. ♥Siqi:From knowing her in council bored till in SGTS when she officially became my twinnie. 4 years knowing her but got close only last year. But it's alright. Because at least she'll still in my life from now onwards! Although we weren't of the same age, but I could tell her many things. She's like my another listening ear. She never fails to cheer me up. I tell her many things, and spazz over HJL with her. Oh, I spazz over my xxx too. Blehh. This girl is just amazing. Thankyou twinnie, ilysm. ♥Huiling:This girl, I must say, it's really fated. She may be my senior in school, but I didn't know her. Until I joined SGTS, when we formed PIES, and she later became my sweetie and sister. Oh, I forgot. She's my apple bottle as well. I remembered I was really upset over something last year, on my birthday. I cried while talking to her. Other occasions as well. I guess I was a crybaby in front of her. And not long ago, after some particular incident which really made me very upset, she was there to comfort me and help me. All her encouraging words made me strong once again and go on with my life. It only shows that they weren't my true friends. "If the friendship is meant to be, it will come back, stronger than ever. And ending a friendship doesn't undo all the wonderful, amazing good times and experiences you had together." "Happiness comes from within... The only person who can ultimately make you happy if you." Thanks sweetie, I love you. ♥Jin Xuan:This heartless brother of mine, actually is an awesome person. Really. At least he's loyal to his friends and quite sociable to me! He can be damn lame and funny at times, which end up becoming my source of entertainment. Honestly, I never regret being his sis. With his naturally anti-social character, he already sort of take pretty good care of me. He actually cheers me up when I'm down and stuffs. It's just that he doesn't starts the conversation and neither do I. -.- But! He's really a good brother, and I'm proud to be his sister. ♥Wei Ying:Another funny and lame brother of mine. But this brother is different. Cause I got close with him since secondary 1 already. Sitting in front of me, he never fails to turn back to talk to me every 5 mins! Even though got into different class in secondary 3, but that didn't mark the end of our friendship. He still talked to me and made fun of me. And one thing, at least he always starts the conversation for sms. Haha! He's also an awesome brother, that's for sure. A better brother than Jin Xuan maybe! He actually sometimes bother to remember the little things that I said. And touched that he actually bother to create outings for the 3 of us. Definitely proud to be his sis! ♥Justman:This annoying guy is really annoying! Just kidding. He's my good friend x502 huh! And how we became close friends? Thanks to Weiying and his dumb rumor. Maybe it's not that bad after all. Well, at least I got another good friend that I can trust. And this good friend is only good can debating with me and opposing whatever that I say. Still, he's one nice guy. Maybe not to the others as what I heard, but at least really nice to me. Wishing me 'Happy Birthday' 4 times this year, I think he's the only one so far. And he's one guy who really remember whatever that I said. Thanks good friend x502! ♥Jonathan:This guy, my best daddy in the whole world. And the only daddy who I can beat! Rofl, all the funny and epic moments when I beat him. Once was falling off from the chair, another time was running away from me and end up hiding under the table. He's really afraid of me I guess. But still, he's a good father! Someone who I can trust and talk to, share my problems and talk about almost everything. And after watching 'You're the Apple of My Eye', suddenly I got something to say to him. "谢谢你喜欢我。" Hahaha! :P Maybe no longer now, but those days back then, he made me really happy, and made me smile many many times. Thankyou daddy! ♥Clement:This crazy asshole who I had scolded for 4 years is still being scolded and getting beaten up by me. Getting into PSC is probably what bring us closer and all the horny and sick jokes that he told me actually still somewhat stayed in my head. We may not be really very close, but at least we still share secrets and I actually asked him for help several times regarding certain issues. Likewise, he shared secrets with me, and treated me like his listening ear. Of all people, he was the only one who I can scold all the vulgarities at. Or in front of him. Cause he don't really care and he's using them as well! Which means that whenever I'm angry, I can always find him to use as a punching bag. :P He's sometimes crazy and whatever, but he's really a nice guy who can be trusted. Thanks asshole. ♥Nat:Only got close with him quite recently, and then realised that he's quite friendly actually. And it all started by being his counselor for 3 hours. Next time I should start charging! Kidding. But really satisfied when my counselling works. Gives me motivation to really go and be a psychologist and help others. He must be really tired of asking me who I like cause after months of pestering me, he still didn't manage to get the answer from me. Haha! He's quite nice though, helping me to find jobs despite my weird job requirement, and helping me to 'shoo' off somebody. But I find it too ruthless so I didn't really do it. Still, he helped me a lot. :)Robby:I was asked by Robby to write how awesome he is, so here I am. The only thing that I can say is, he trust me! A lot I think. He actually told me so many things and the story of his life. Or rather, *inserts story's title*. Kinda shocked actually. Cause I didn't expect anyone to trust me that much. But, fret not. My lips are sealed. I won't say a single thing even if I'm being tortured or beaten up! Thanks Robby, for trusting me. When I fully trust you, I'll tell you who he is. ;)
Okay, I guess I'm done. Of course the people I mentioned above aren't the only ones who I wanna thank. This is probably the longest post I've ever posted in my whole entire life. Longer than an essay huh. My readers must be really bored right now, maybe even dozing off already. Oh, how can I forget to thank my lovely mum and grandma? ♥ Shall go off right now. Bye my lovely readers. :')
Friday, December 9, 2011
♥ You're the apple of my eye
Came back from my Tasmania trip and it was really an enjoyable and fun trip. Especially it was free and easy, I can sleep in the car! But I hate it that we didn't go for the jet boats and adventurous activities. I thought it would be even better with those activities. It was the first time I ever see a Tasmania devil and I swear, it was freaking cute. So is the wombat! I really wonder how can some people knocked them down on the road and not have any sense of guiltiness. D:
I love Cradle Mountain most. The air is fresh and high up in the mountains. It was like another experience for me. There's no reception and stuffs and that means you don't have anything to do with any technology stuffs. I think it wasn't a bad idea actually. At least life wasn't so stressed up, you can really relax.
During these 6 days, it actually somehow served as a period for me to think slowly and free myself from my annoying and crazy life. I don't have to sms anyone, don't have to use twitter and facebook, don't have to see my friends changing into another person whom I don't even know if I knew them from the start. It was really annoying. "As time passes, people changed." How true.
Watched 那些年，我們一起追的女孩 today with Weiliang. Ages since I last stepped into the cinema. And I gotto admit, it was an awesome show. Up till now, I still can't stop spazzing over it. And hey, don't you think the guy is cute? ;)Hi love, you're the apple of my eye. ♥